odds-and-ends

2009-09-29T03:29:00.001+08:00

i'm here to say goodbye.
moved.

2009-09-29T01:59:00.003+08:00

i just had 5 big wantons,
10 cold unheated dumplings,
one big fully packed dinner.

and now i'm lying like a snake on my bed.

watchin as the night begins to rain.
being fully aware of the bright streaks,
about to flash across the sky in a few seconds time...

2009-09-28T21:23:00.007+08:00

These two pages are torn out from the Seventeen's magazine.
and currently reside on my lovely noticeboard now.
they came in the right time!
=)

A List of "This month I will..."

and of course,
a list of "This month I won't..."

As quoted:

"All the things that break you,
Are all the things that
Make you strong.
You can't change the past,
'Cause it's gone,
And you just gotta move on."

- Carrie Underwood.

I love the way it is phrased.

2009-09-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

i saw yeo kaiquan,
kuan rongmin
wenjing, tk and big jj ytd at work!

gosh.
somehow reminding me that i am not alone.
yeo kai was nice to gimme a ride back hall.
and his parents as usual,
super nice to me la.
haha.

phew.made it in time for vetting.
thanks dude!

2009-09-28T09:30:00.002+08:00

Think whatever you may think,
i dun care bout it anymore.
=)

I lead my life well.

2009-09-28T02:47:00.003+08:00

forgot to mention in ytd's post...
i am...

To make a decision WHOLE-HEARTEDLY.

say no more.
just do it.

so,
when the devil comes,
dun identify your likeness with it.
tell it to shoo.

yeah!

work at nike was fantastic.
mr philips aka negro aka watever name we gave him,
such an utter rubbish.
haha.
kept talkin crap and pestering me to dance in the store?
and we started doing stupid dance moves.

gave me a hell lot of laughter todae.
we couldn't stop singing and howling until we left the shop.
and locking that guy in the shop,
saying no one would recognise him from the color anyway

so, phillip came to ask me...
"do you want chocolate?

haha. WAT THE HELL.

the three gossipers at the fitting room.

female part timers.rawk.

can you spot philip's face?=p

2009-09-27T02:34:00.007+08:00

i probably gobbled down 1/4 the pot of apple crumble at eva's party.

To dingxiang, thanks for the constant nagging to go to sleep.
Resorting to your offer of a bed time story.
i love CINDERELLA.

To liren, thanks for reminding me,
that it's bad for health.
You never fail to spark me off
thinking bout how i was like.
I'll work towards regaining it!

=)

2009-09-27T01:12:00.002+08:00

laoda, you're so right.

i question myself:
"Do i want to be one who's upset and dwelling in miseries,
or do i want to be one who's tough and remember surviving the miseries?"

I prefer the latter.

Psalm 15:4 - "He who swears to his own hurt and does not change."
A man of integrity keeps to his promise.
Your word is as good as your name.
So if you can't make it worthy, don't give your word.

I will do, as i promised to God.

Scoldings get to me easier than consolence.
so ppl,please be harsh to me in future.
or not i wouldn't wake up.

I'm happy todae.
bcos i didn't focus on it anymore.

2009-09-25T23:08:00.015+08:00

Dear handkerchief,

if you think you're simply disposable,
one that is used when tears fall,
one that is thrown when all's fine,
you are SO wrong.

Its bcos you mean so much to me,
that's why i'm tryin so hard to clean your stains....
All my ill-treatment that dirtied you.
I thought I as being accountable,
yet i came to become irresponsible.

Bas as i was,
I dun wanna be that owner who dumps on you anymore.

I always hoped to see you when i'm happy,
To pour my tears of excitement on you,
To share all my joys and sorrows with you, handkerchief.

But yet,
i can't seem to find you everytime i want to.
I can't grasp hold of you,
No....i lost you.

Or rather,
you choose to disappear out of my sight.

Dear handkerchief,
I've changed, I'm smiling hard.
I want to accompany, not to gain sympathy.
I want to appreciate you, handkerchief.

Why is it that you can't see my heart?
Why is it that you leave me with no chance?
Why is it that you keep forcing me to give up waitin for you to appear?

Is it because you found urself another better owner?
One that appreciates you more than I had?
Then fly, my handkerchief...
I should be happy for you.

Cos i realise it helps nothing,
even if i do now more than I did.

2009-09-25T14:26:00.002+08:00

waking up late is like some norm now.
haha.
i wonder when i could allow myself regular sleep.

met project group mates to go for spore flyer trip!
shaik and hasantha and i...
lost sheeps along citylink road.
took 45 mins just to find the friggin flyer.

and worst, sue jean and michelle was late.
thanks to the closure of roads everywhere.
why the hell is f1 in spore.
shoo.

no matter wat, i refused to dance for those 2 indians boys in my group to see.
the whole journey was bent on
"how do you move to the music...?"
(emphasiz...the indian accent was cute=p)

anyway we cam whored like crazy in the cabin.
jumpin while we were at the summit?
gosh.
i was still screamin in my msg to clement b4 i took the flyer.
luckily it didn't bounce out on me.
ha.

thanks for the ride back to hall sue jean.
and derek for ur looooonnnngggg wait just to accompany me to UCC.
haha.
rush hour man.
and with all the scoldings regardless the efforts put in,
it doesn't help in feeling much better.
but oh wells,
it's BLAST.
blast off dude.

supper with blastards in hall.
cheesy chicken provided with lovely analytical psychology tests.
that gave everyone a hell of a laughter.
great times spent.
but had to rush off for simyee's prac.

i hate TURNS.

starvation hit after the whole day of activities.
and i was still pondering if that cute little japanese biscuit ellen hunee got me
could suffice my hunger.
clement was tryin to convince me to buy food everywhere we went searchin for supper.
haha.

ended up,
cai fong cooked noodles for me!
added with lovely ingredients....and of course,EGG.
thanks dude!!!!

i am so happppppyyyyy....
noodles rawk.

2009-09-24T12:00:00.003+08:00

frigggggggggg.
woke up to realise i had to hand in a report todae.
which i totalli had no idea of previousli.

managed to finish in one hour.
uploaded 2mins before the deadline.

i hate RUSHING.

2009-09-24T02:34:00.002+08:00

subway cookies rawk.
=p

had long day of project stuff and DR rehearsals...
UCC habituated smell.
phew.

fred and clement were in my room cuttin the stuff juz now.
and mr frederick voon seemed half dead.
haha.
u guys left so much black cloth flying everywhere here la!
aiyoooooo.

anyway, prac was good.
haha.
i love to watch dance ensemble.
and i hate standing in the first row, middle, and screwin up my steps.
darn.

concert prac after DR..
finished up my new song!
haha.
hope it was fun people!

thanks for tellin me...
i'm truely happy for you, so just go on k?
i'll smile , dun worry.
=)

2009-09-23T03:24:00.003+08:00

and so here i am.
back from dance since 9pm..
with 6 hrs of non stop throwing,
i guess it was realli a shag day.
haha.

but i still had fun!
at least it took my mind off some things.
and it was tuesday,
so waffles from uncle vincents managed to bring that smile again!

we love waffles!!!

2009-09-22T20:45:00.004+08:00

work work work.

i love NIKE.
i love my colleagues.

stupid Takin, kept singing "how do i live w/o you..." in front of me.
if not for that wonderous wanton he treated me too,
i would have given him that in the balls.
=p

to show off how BIG the wanton was,
here it is:

taking a closer look....

nicely shaped!

succulent fillings.

headed down to teach tuition after work.
caught a glimpse of this funny ad.

note the words against the red bkgrd.=p
(i'm anal about spelling, apologies...)

so there was my tuition kid,
hyperactive,
jumpin non-stop,
exploring that chair he had underneath his butt.
paying as little attention to me as possible.

and he pronounced "advertisement" as "anuvakatu"
like....wat the hell is comin to kids nowadays??
haha.

2009-09-22T02:20:00.007+08:00

sooooo hungry.
ended up having 2 packets of maggi noodles.
thanks cai fong for the egg!

me eats no maggi with no egg.

had work in morning,
cheonged back to do project,
screaming and shouting stress over my complaint letter assignment.
all the time clement was cutting his dance pants beside me.
like...super anti-climax.
=p

anyway we had DR block-in..
everyone shagged themselves out by the 3rd run todae.
look at the panting and hard breathing at our last pose, and u'll know.
it is soooooo friggin hard to balance with those kinda skinny black shoes.

gosh.
i lost my balance at every single step i took.
wham.thats it.
i hate small shoes.

came back for concert prac under eileen's choreo.
realli happy to have been able to dance with hall ppl.
a great relief, a wonderful experience.

and now,
im back to eatin my noodoos........

2009-09-21T03:37:00.002+08:00

I mean,
If we could come to seek forgiveness from Him
for all the sins that we've done over & over again...

What gives us the right to not forgive those who did the same to us,
trying to seek our forgiveness for the hurt they caused us,
time and over again?

Never indulge in eternal hatred.

2009-09-21T03:02:00.003+08:00

just ended a looooonnnngggg chat with derek.
i'm glad i'm able to help him in one way or another.
let's work hard togeda alright?
regardless in dance or in life..
derek jiayou!

Caught a midnight movie before this
With clara,gerald,wenjing,jacob & anliang..
INGLORIOUS BASTERDS.
3 hrs of grossed out scenes.
filled with dark humour,
and of course,
handsome faces.(brad pitt....i mean)

most of the time,
i was covering my face screaming "no...no!!"
but still,opening my eyes wide to catch the disgusting scenes.
haha.

thanks for the movie, the ride, and the invite!
it's been so long since i've seen these ppl.

Had a blast of a day eating at yinghuan's bdae party.
Great place, Great food, Great ppl.
slept my way through after eating though.
=p

took this photo before we left yinghuan's place!haha.

bored until clement n i decided not to waste our time,
and headed down to bugis to shop for costumes.
and ate, AGAIN.

we never seemed to stop eating.haha=)

anyway,
sent henry off todae at airport...
i miss him soooooooooooooo much!
i guess everyone does...
and sharon, dun cry le ok?
we'll stay close, bonded and wait for him to return!

the sister that accompanied me all e way.

the food guru trio (me,henry,bryan)

let's hold on to the memories and make more of it stay.

2009-09-20T00:21:00.007+08:00

"You are never remembered for what you GET, but what you GIVE."

Be a giver and learn to be less selfish.
Be understanding and learn to empathise more.

Just like the big fish that God sent to swallow Jonah up,
we all face similar overwhelming crisis in our lives.
Gettin stuck and not knowing how to get out of the situation.

Jonah chose to complain about life being unfair for him.
He chose to be concerned about a small plant that sheltered him,
when the entire population in Nevevah was about to perish.
He ranaway from God, detesting how God seemed to be using him yet not fulfilling his wants.

Most importantly,
He looked towards God only when he was unhappy.

But the thing is,
nothing in life happens without His permission.
Everything happens for a reason,
to bring you closer to His calling, closer to Him.
God is never upset when you are upset with Him.
God never gives up on you even when you gave up on Him.
He uses us, yes, but to make us better ppl.

Sounds like i'm being sacred here?
Well, I just happen to realise everything happens for a reason.

God sets it up for us to overcome, so that we can be a leader.
Do not be afraid of confrontations, of criticism.
The fact is, He sends you many things to wrestle with, struggle through,
to provoke your repressed anger and depression.
But what for?

He wants to change something within you.

It is therefore a test,
whether you can come forth as GOLD.

Job 23:10 : "But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold."

People make mistakes.
All of them, including me.
Yet what is it that I should look forward to?
Recalling the past, dwelling in the present, or looking to the future?
Mistakes, as they imply, are already made.
Sins, regardless how bad they are, are already committed.

Yet does this mean that particular one who sinned has no chance to be forgiven?
How does this show of ourselves then?
And throwing ourselves into eternal guilt over sth that cannot be retrieved...
Would it do much help?

I was stuck there, all the time.
Condemning myself for all the bad things and sins i've done.
Feeling unworthy of love and self-sympathy for what is now.
But today, I've realised i shouldn't.
I should stop throwing myself into things that pull me down further.
I should stop self-pitying, and show that I can be a better one.

At the start of service,
I wanted so much FROM God.

At the end of service,
I wanted to do so much FOR God.

His love was overwhelming, till such a point i started questioning myself.
Why was He trying to be so compassionate and loving?

Then i told myself,
Be worthy of it then.
Make him proud,

by surviving your crisis,
and coming forth as a new, strong one.

Yuko thinks:
Get up on your feet, and do proud of your life.
Having done lousy in your past is enough,
but don't make your future worst off.
It shucks going around, trying to avoid and forget reality.

I need to know that i'm worthy of love, and i am not that i imagined myself to be.
I need to appreciate and learn to give back to the ones i love.
I need to nurture my life and earning that forgiveness from the ones i forsaked.
I need to show that I can be what you hope to see.

Don't hate me anymore.
Give me a chance to change, for the better person I promise.
Would you?

2009-09-19T15:00:00.001+08:00

just came back from MKT3402 test.
goodness sake wat the hell was i doin.

first, i slept half the time off.
second, i shaded the oas in a hurry to finish and zhao.
third, i didn't double check whether i did all the qns not.

and yesh.
i am back at hall now.
haha.
=p

my current mood: CRAP.

2009-09-19T09:42:00.003+08:00

busking performance at NLB ytd...
great show it was,
thou we screwed up here n there.
and reached 5mins before showtime.
haha.

but it was great fun!

i concluded we looked like tai-tais...

jes said we looked lesbians=p

girls united~!

group photo.....

not forgettin my huneee.

and the supporter who got caught in the rain.
(he missed the show..sobx.)

so....hunnee went to meet her baby.
after i screamed at soozey over the phone for my screwed up dance.
=p

i had to recommend the others e beef noodos at lai lai!

rawks.

we rushed back to UCC to catch The Next Wave..
thanks to miss tey, who came up with an emergency situation.
haha...
3 buskers, one "decent looking stage manager"..
frantically waving for taxis along clementi.
and tsk-ing at aunties who just happily jumped queue.
=p

anyway, it was a gd show.
regardless i sat there, quiet all the way.

i love to see him dance!
u go boy!=)

clement was high on adrenaline.
prob had too much food to burn...
he accompanied me all the way after concert,
and thruout my dance prac w eileen!
ahah...appreciated!

2009-09-18T02:29:00.003+08:00

"Don't tell people what needs to be done, but what CAN be done."

i saw this on Kim's notebook todae.
apparently she experiences a whole load of revelations during lessons.
saw her busy scribbling down notes.
probably to share with her cell grp members later on?
haha.
i'm so proud of her.

thursdays are simply a drag.
esp when u know u have a performance the next day,
and u're itching to get it over and done with.
haha.
jiayou and let's put up a gd show tml!
=)

thanks clement for ur neverending trips to cheers.
and teachin me so much about lab experiments!
u shud have seen how amazed i was at the equipments
considerin i was still fresh awake when he brought me there at 1am plus.

sorry mummy,
that i blasted at u when u came to visit me.
i guess, i cudnt stand it how kor just matters more.
haha.

i learnt two new words todae.

academic overspecialization.

probably a simpler way to put it would be simply,
muggers.

2009-09-17T02:33:00.002+08:00

hectic schedule of work, studying, dance.
sleeping at every single moment,
dozing off at every bus i take,
lying everywhere around the dance floors during practise...

i'm turning into a pig!!!!
NUUUUUUUUUUU.......
haha.

busking crew, jiayou!
DR ppl, don't zap ur energy away!
i'm holding on, so u guys must too!=)

2009-09-15T17:53:00.005+08:00

Trust lyrics
Songwriters: Cole, Keyshia; Taylor, Frederick;

I know you're scared, baby
But, you gotta give me everything, yeah

Let me be the one who can take you
From all the things you've seen
And if you trust in me
I can be there for anything you need

And give it all to me, baby
Don't you run from me, baby
I'll give you every little piece of me
No, I won't leave out a thing, 'cuz I

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
It got you feeling like this can't be right
But, I won't hurt you, I'm down for you, baby

Let me show you, love can be easy
If you just let it be
Nothing is promised, but I believe if
If you give it everything, trust

I'll give you everything that I've got
I won't stop until you get it right
All the trust and all the love
You know we got a lot, baby

I trust you, I love you, I want you, I need you
Baby, I breathe you, never leave you
Life wouldn't be the same without you

I know you've seen a lot of things in your life
I won't hurt you, baby no, in your life
I love you, baby oh
I don't care what you say about us, oh no, no, no, no, no, no

In your life, I won't hurt you, baby no
In your life, I won't hurt you, baby no
In your life, I love you, baby yeah, oh

2009-09-15T15:50:00.004+08:00

True friendships never exist in this world.
Only temporary good ones do.

We should never depend too much on "you have my word."
This word, it changes with time, with circumstances.

Yet, I've come to tell myself this:

Don't try to assume what u feel is what others feel.
Don't do unto others by considering what they can do unto you.
Don't try to find what went wrong, but reflect on what you can do to make it right.
Most importantly, be willing to give, but don't expect to take in return.

Yuko, learn to be a better person.
=)

2009-09-15T02:21:00.003+08:00

woke up late for work todae!
almost dieded from lack of sleep during work.
so sorry to my supervisor who showed his utter understanding...
and thanks sacha boss for the lunch treat!

rushed down to tuition after that.
my kid's kinda cute..
just kept smiling thruout the whole lesson.
thou i was dozing off.
and started whacking my own head to keep awake..=p

i guess i must have looked quite stupid as a tuition teacher.

anyways,
dance was loooonnnnnnnggggg.
i didn't know why it felt like the longest 3 hours ever.
i'm glad weiting cancelled her's in the end.
thou i ended up doin nth much.

a waste of time.
frigggggg.
i'm best at that.haha.

gotta wake up earli for work tml!
i betta catch some sleep.

2009-09-15T01:48:00.000+08:00

intro-ed by derek...
amazing!

2009-09-13T03:03:00.004+08:00

yay finally done with moving!
haha.

took me more than 5 hrs to finish doing so.
i swear im gonna throw away half my wardrobe this yr...
prob some other random accessories too.
haha.

and i mopped the floor FIVE times.
hands, magiclean wipes,mops...
all u can think of.
too bad i'm a clean and neat freak.
=p

now, wat's lacking?
a dustbin and a floor mat.

today's service was great.
inspiring, loving, heart-warming.
benjamin was nice enough a buddy to send me all the way back to hall!
and got me bread somemore!
haha.

dance reflections rehearsal was in the morning.
prepared to simply wake up and head down.
so arrived in that "huh? i just woke up" look.=p
pat's instructions were....confusing.
haha.
as usual.

still,
dance rawks.

2009-08-24T23:52:00.006+08:00

damn funny.
need to perk urself up?
watch this:

2009-08-24T22:35:00.001+08:00

things to settle when i first came back from work.

1. dance makeup decisions
2. dance studio usage timings (discuss w director)
3. dance choreography
4. dancers allocation

5. revise schoolwork.

like wat the hell.
seriously.

2009-08-23T01:10:00.005+08:00

pictures of the day...

happy together.

happy forever.

RH dance blastards unite

jason, always so understanding.

finally another's over.
yet right before the whole performance started,
i blanked out on my steps.
thanks to my boggling mind.
full of random thoughts.

concentrate, yuko tan.

"be true to yourself", ellen says.
yet...what is me?

anyways,
it was a fantastic job that Blast! put up at NTU Dancetitude todae.
thou we only performed one guest item,
we had loads of fun over there!
haha.
curtain call preparation in the room was full of energy.
and we had free bubble tea cum kinder chocolates thanks to our choreos!

my dirtyyy teeth thanks to kinder chocolate.

kudos to Blast! for allowing me to learn so much.
thanks to alvan for his free rides todae..
and chit chattin with me on the way.
i realised so much bout life thru his words.

even talkin to michelle today made me found out so many things.
it's one thing to say and another to do so.
jiayou girl,
i'm with you.
=)

and ellen hunee,
you rawk.
thanks for being there and talkin to me even after show ended.
i love being emo with u
=p

emo shot.

2009-08-13T00:32:00.002+08:00

years ago, they were still kids..
yet they amazed me with their voices.

as they grew up...
they continued to amazed me.
=)

2009-08-11T11:36:00.000+08:00

wow..........
last yr's float dance pic is on NUS website.
haha.

2009-08-06T11:56:00.003+08:00

as i was busy amidst my heavy schedules of work & dance
i whipped out some time to attend church anniversary.
finally at a slower pace of life.

took this randomly...
thought it looked great.

there i caught the video of Sun's humanitarian work
and got reminded of how my busy-ness and tired-ness...
it was so incomparable to the misfortunes out there.

i always grumbled and complained
about how unpleasing it was to handle so many events at once.
So much so that i lost the drive to even feel happy doing it.

Looking at how the refugee victims were suffering from a sole lack of food in the world,
I started to appreciate the fact that i had TOO MANY things to worry.
maybe its just the humanitarian nature within me,
but witnessing scenes and images lk these tragedies
made me feel more grateful to wat i have for now,
and love wat i am given more of.

so, dance it. work it.

2009-08-01T23:39:00.001+08:00

freak!
this personality test is super accurate.

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a
problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You value your friendships: 75%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

2009-07-29T09:50:00.011+08:00

heres a big THANK YOU to all who made my 21st a fab one this year!

presents presents presents..
whole loads of them from diff ppl!

1. floaters - for the 21 different breads!
2. esther & fiona - for buying the breads...
3. lucian - for the chocolate cake & merci chocolates(at 12midnight)
4. thommy - for the ham & cheese bun.hee.
5. bryan - yummy oreo cheesecakeeeeeee~
6. azman - the blood-circulating bracelet
7. fred - a bar of belgium chocolate 8. ellen - lollipop necklace! 9. yvonne poon - an oh-so-good chocolate cake.
10. tkd gang - for the wonderful schedule board & a cutest miniature collection of breads
11. su gang - the green boxes and whole loads of chocolates
12. blast ppl - the blasting danzppl package, with The Big Groove ticket included
13. proS gang - my damn nice specs.

alright...i am super excited by all my presents...
thanks sooooooo much ppl!
haha..

had a pack of a day ytd when celebrating.
let's start it off with 27 july night.
peiyiing, my current hall twin, who has the same bdae as me,was a very nice girl.
so she helped me in moving to my new room..
and we went out in search of daily scoop ice cream cafe after that.

we walked for a long period of time at sunset way,
and when we finally found the place,
it just closed for the day.darn.
so we had vanilla pudding that was on offer from cold storage instead!
haa.but we enjoyed the company togeda!

twin pei yiing.

float dance prac was on that night.
so i was teachin halfway thru the dance,
when suddenli the studio blackout-ed and two cakes came in,
with a whole load of hall ppl.
along with it was a bomb of 21 different breads!!!!
OVERWHELMING.

i love how esther and fiona thought bout gettin the breads.
and i love the breads too.
thanks babes!
=p

hall dudes!

den....after the big celeb in the studio,
(which me & peiyiing wanted so much to achieve initialli)
we continued practisin the dance togeda.
before i came back to tidy up my room,
and find all the bdae wish msgs in my phone & fb..
=)

28july was the day.
yes, an irritating pest like me was born.=p

so i met simei & budyy in hall..
they dressed me up, and out we went to their matric fair!
haha.
visited blast booth and saw alot of other frens..

den we cabbed down to jurong point to meet amanda & chenghao..
jap theme dressing for the day!
and we started the journey.

1st stop:BAKERZINN

- irish cream souffle
- meringue biscuits w cheesecake & ice cream
- ice cream waffle

souFFle.

niceeee.

fav of all.

i love how the sunrays lit up our dishes.
and the day started off well with a sweet tinge.
but i was getting nostalgic of the past...
so...

2nd stop: JJC

- ever-so-famous fried mifen
- still nice fried mian

mifen.

mian.

plus, a visit to all my old jc teachers!
JJC changed quite a bit...there's even each-a-cup bubble tea in the school!

3rd stop: ROCHOR ROAD

- rochor beancurd
- youtiao!

it was a long walk there,
but we enjoyed the air con!
haha.

oily but nice=p

4th stop: CARAMEL CAFE (shaw towers)

- bread pudding
- western styled carrot cake
- creme brulee

i love the atmosphere of the this cafe,
which you had to enter by walking through this fantasy saloon.
cosy and home styled cafe.

my fav.

carrot's cute.

cremmeeee..

5th stop: FISHERMEN'S WHARF
(substituted the supposed gallery hotel)

- atlantic halibut fillet
- freshly cut, skinned and fried potato chips!

well,
we tried it with salt and vinegar and chilli sauce.
not as nice as our previous visits,
but still, i love the fish!

yummy.

6th stop: CHINATOWN PLAZA

- mont blanc cake (which we din have in the end!)
- cam whored...

that was where all my presents unrevealed...
after i counted to a 1000 facing the wall.
=p

there i parted with amanda mx and chenghao...sobx...

tour gang for the day.

met SU gang around evening..
and headed to the our dinner stop!

7th stop: HOTEL Re!

- shroom carbonara
- set meals (oxtail/fish)
- free flow of bread
- oreo cheesecake =)

it was hard on them,
since fine dining serves a MINIATURE serving for their main dish.
but it was good food.
serious.

bread.

oxtail.

fish.

my carbonara.

cheesy.

SU gang..lacking in a few ppl thou=p

and we took a WHOLE LOAD OF PICTURES.
muahaha...
thanks to mx and sharon's camera!
too bad mine spoiled long ago.

i love the toilets at the hotel thou.

takin self shots.

basically the hotel was realli....nice!
retro yet modernized concept.

1. my bestest organiser for the day!

2. my da jie.

3. my twin.

4. my er ge.

5. my....maid.

den we walked to outram mrt..
discussing nus and ntu stuff all the time.
and realising i friggin forgot bout my bidding.
=p

back to hall.
to receive a 2nd surprise call.
=)

edited float music to adjust my mindset back to dancin at nite.
and i was amidst my unconsciousness when lucian came over to discuss stuff w me.
i'm so sorry mama!
ahha.
i think i was blabbing nonsense.

that's all..more photos on fb!

As i made my wish this year, i prayed to God for a silent while.

2009-07-17T23:56:00.003+08:00

FAITH: Moving Forward.
FEAR: Falling Backward.

Change is brought about only when you are disatisfied enough to do sth about it.
Have Faith, not Fear.

So true.

I love Cell Group Meeting.
and e405.
=)

2009-07-17T08:51:00.002+08:00

tot i'll share this after sacha showed us in the briefing..

yvonne poon i DARE you to try this!=p

2009-07-15T14:11:00.002+08:00

arghhhhhhhhhh.
why am i so friggin poor.

2009-07-15T12:38:00.002+08:00

i like the way this pic captures my name=p

shopping with sharon was supposed to be a trip for me to look for clothes.
ended up,
i got bored lookin at clothes
=p

waitin for si-mei to change.

i was more fascinated with seeing this at bugis street!

sharon tryin to pinch it.

2009-07-15T11:48:00.001+08:00

yuko is excited.
she's gonna have her new specs.
thanks to her primary school gang proS.

3 specs.
one for decency purposes,
one for dance,
another for the normal me in the room.

happy happy
=p

2009-07-14T18:02:00.000+08:00

i thought of sth that linked to dsf todae.

but i cant rem wat.

argh.

alzheimer's gettin to me.

2009-07-11T23:37:00.003+08:00

for all u out there.
some new shoes at Nike Factory Outlet Store..

i like this color combi.

note: there's another where the purple is green too.

been busy working..
dancing...
choreo-ing.

i am so excited for float dance.
can't wait to torture them with the uber unglam steps.

dance show for PGP comin soon.
jiayou to weina, chi tarng, thommy liren n i man.
one week.

met some frens a few days ago.
old frens.
i seemed to be bumping into loads of the other old frens recently.
some i never knew existed.
well, "yuko" is a unique name.
so much so that people rem me more than i do towards them.
=p

outing with kaiquan,dx, marvin..
went to west coast plaza...
like...????!!!!
alrighty...at least i had my summer cuddle.
after questioning the waitress for sooooo long wat it was.
haha.

seeing the light at the waterfront stadium.

a pic i took.i love it.

man.
busy dance schedules comin up soon.

1. concert dance production.
2. hall float dance
3. blast busking item
4. 2 dance shows to do,19 july & 7 aug
5. MJ dancetitude
6. dance reflections.

all at one shot?
guess i gotta choose sth to let go.

or else i'll end up like today morning.
catchin no balls at claud esther's choreo.
sighs.haha.

2009-07-09T02:48:00.001+08:00

just when i was drinkin the milk i had in my hand..
i saw this article online:

"Liquid Fasting Diet Tips:

Dairy products are strict no-no. This is because dairy products may prove to be hard on your body, when you are liquid fasting. Moreover, it takes a long time to digest dairy products. "

-____-"............

2009-07-07T11:49:00.002+08:00

featuring some of the absolutely gorgous cakes i saw online!

simple and plain.
yet nice.

freak i'll feel so like a princess.

the spongebob edition!

cuteeee....

wahhhhhhh.

2009-07-06T17:27:00.001+08:00

6th day of fasting.
gettin used to it.
jiayou...
15 more to go!=)

2009-07-06T17:06:00.001+08:00

this is sickeningly good.

2009-07-06T02:39:00.002+08:00

busking prac ytd night was good..
hope i din tire u guys out too much!

ellen n soozey popped over.
and we did pancakes for the busking crew!
=)

great wife at work.

fortunate fat man.

dun understand why those i made always turnt out so puffy.

can you spot the one we named "FAT PIECE"???

end product with nutella n banana...

2009-07-04T23:30:00.004+08:00

another day of two jobs,
over again.

shagness?
nah, it's all in the mind.
but darn,
i missed becky's sharing session.

2009-07-04T05:33:00.002+08:00

just finished work.
now waitin for my first bus.
listenin to ppl here,
shouting vulgarities and f-ing here n there.
dots.

2009-07-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

i so want to cut this hairstyle.....

2009-07-02T13:15:00.006+08:00

finalli my first day of work started ytd at nike FOS.
new frens one bunch,
all sporty young dudes.

hanging and tagging the clothes ain't easy people,
so learn not to ask for new piece.
(thou i do so myself too=p)

its been so long since i've worked in sports retail.
feels...good.

dragged my legs to blast prac,
and relearnt the killer choreo during PA tat dae.
whoohoo.

thank to ellen, poon and wilkson.
for attending the first buskin prac.
hope it was fun!
=)

i caught ellen tucking in her shirt=p

poon preparing to flip...

there she goes!

definitely not shagged enuff,
since those two girls cud still continue dancing other choreos after tat with thommy.
hmph....
=p

stylish pose.

me slacking off...

i command all 3 of u to stand still!

us after dance prac...

MUAHAHAHA.
DANCING ROCKS.

anyway,
here are some photos i took two days ago at ishi mura..

bling bling!

can u see the stars brightening up their bkgrd?

michelle's drawing...
can u guess who?=p

2009-06-30T23:56:00.002+08:00

shucks.
wat kinda script are thrown at.
lack of depth, lack of content, lack of proper language.
seriousli,
we are in deep shit.

sighx.

in any case,
i still enjoyed ahmad's choreo todae.
challengin yet fun and groovy.
plus, i had great company.
thanks to yongkai, michelle, ellen n soozey.

ishi mura food rawks.
too bad soozey got himself a bad, dry and full-of-veg pot of rice for himself.
poor carnivore.

mich n i found out that ellen's bf likes to "hur" everytime he laughs.
=p

AYG 2009 was good.
everyone was high.
Especialli for me,
i was OVERLY high.
so i made the dumbest mistakes anyone could have done.
but oh well,
i hope my efforts to cover it wif my big white smile did not go in vain.
at least henry spotted me from the smile.
=p

blast dinner at cineleisure,
toasts were hot for the night.
i love oozing peanut butter
=)

Been clarke-quaying, bugis-ing, Dhoby Ghaut-ing all these time.
Is this a sign i'm growin up to be an adult,
that lingers and spends all my time in this busy biz district?
but holla.
how can it be.
when i'm there for dance most of the time.

By the way,
30 june 2009 was supposed to be my happiest day on earth.
bcos i had 2 yami yoghurt medium cup sized with granolas!
poon says granola's not healthy...=(
but heck it, i live to eat.
haha.

i grabbed like..5 subway cookies to munch on after that.
i guess gettin lost for half an hr tryin to find ellen's workplace jz made me hungry.
haha.

2009-06-30T04:41:00.004+08:00

check it out coke dudes.
i spot some of u blast ppl!
=)

but seriously...
we spent almost 1.5hr takin scenes and scenes...
just for this?????????

and for another shocking ecperience,

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
i didn't realise he was in this too!
or rather, he choreo-ed it!

man i'm flying.

2009-06-29T12:56:00.000+08:00

pei yiing just told me this over msn:

"it's like, you wear a mask...
so happy, so perfect outside,
but sometimes i wonder how much you go through inside."

haha.

2009-06-29T12:29:00.001+08:00

http://d-aux-hiphop.blogspot.com/

2009-06-28T13:58:00.001+08:00

alright i just realised jordin sparks was from american idol.
dots.

2009-06-28T13:47:00.002+08:00

Piano Man Lyrics

Mr. Piano Man...

Play a song for us (Mr. Piano Man)
Play a song for love (Mr. Piano Man)
Play a song for us (Mr. Piano Man)
Play a song for love

Do you have a request book handy I could flip through?
I do, he said "My name is Rodney, good to meet you"
"What do you wanna hear tonight?" He asked me
He says "That I can feel inside", Ohh
I've got what you need, I know exactly
Why don't we give this a try?

Play me a song about heartache,
I promise I could sing every word (Mr. Piano Man)
Play me a song about love lost,
'cause that's another one everyone's heard (Strike up the band)
We can have the whole world singing tonight
We can have the whole world singing tonight
Come on, we can have the whole world singing tonight
We can have the whole world singing tonight (Mr. Piano Man)

Oh, he played a song filled with sadness, I believed him
Each note was stricken with madness, I could see it
We were lost in the music, everyone knew it
Truth was in the air tonight
I could see all the faces, they started to say it
"Won't you please..."

He was going for hours, people crying showers
No one ever really tells how it is
I sang about hopeless 'cause everyone knows it, knows it
And it was so honest
Finally breathing some clean air, been through it and seen it
I put my star to fame
And as spotlight was fading, he just kept on playing, oh woah

2009-06-28T11:37:00.000+08:00

i'm such a lazy bum.
shall go edit float music now.
sighs.

hope i can work out more later.

TBG tonight!
so excited...
meetin ellen hunee, poonie dear,thommy boy and oozey soozey.
gosh i've got names for all of them
=p

2009-06-28T10:12:00.005+08:00

phenomenal?

i dunno why, i was simply touched.

this was him in 2007.

he didn't make it to the final show.

after one year, in 2008...

2009-06-28T04:38:00.002+08:00

i love shark nuggets lor mee.

some interesting observations ellen & i made at a supermarket...

Taiwan grapes: $9.80

Japes grapes: $16.80

Japan grapes: $70.00

like,
wow.

2009-06-25T10:35:00.001+08:00

wth...
found this from krystal's blog.

2009-06-25T09:07:00.000+08:00

alright.
thomas "dragged me to hell" ytd.
at gv vivo.
=p

gd show...
but a bit too fake for real life.
ha.

2009-06-24T13:35:00.002+08:00

better control.
time to buck up,yuko tan.

2009-06-23T12:03:00.003+08:00

our hall volleyball guys at dance!
gettin the crowd high!
ahahah....

2009-06-23T11:18:00.000+08:00

inspiration

2009-06-23T00:38:00.001+08:00

thanks to mama for intro-ing me this video!
i realli lk the choreo.
and of course, the song.

2009-06-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

thanks to poon babe for acompanyin me at the shoot todae!
she was more lk a manager.
providing me all that i can have.
haha.

we love the building..

makin funny faces.

do we look lk we're in paris?

now i've managed to collect the lucky draw prize i won todae..
and some refund for a competition.
but wats the best is,

i had soursop flavoured yami yoghurt!
whoohoo!

2009-06-22T09:43:00.006+08:00

ok..here are some of my fav pics from the shoot.
thanks to aylwin!

1. smiling like a 16 year old.

2. dunno-lookin-where emo shot

3. wow.i never tot i cud do this..

4. plain close up.

The photographer and i!

2009-06-22T02:07:00.003+08:00

successfully worked with ellen hunee for the past 2 days!

after seeing the shoot photos.
i decided to officially show how fat my face is when i smile..

and my dearest fren here showed me he was the same too.

anyway,

here's some of the interesting dishes i had the past few days...
all are famous!

OLD TOWN ipoh hor fun.

OLD TOWN ice fire polo bun.

jurong pt's jollibean
(my fav of all)

green char kway teow
(pasir panjang food centre)

the sad milo.
=(

2009-06-20T23:57:00.005+08:00

yes, those black and blue rings are making good friends with my eyes.
they seem to complement each other very well now.
now THAT'S a bad news.

ribena roadshow day 1!
ellen and i ended up complaining alot to each other.
=p

hunee ellen!
(love workin with her...hee.)

mascot big eyes.
- a cheer up

Of course, not forgettin mascot berry!

Thanks guys,
for the wonderful pick-up.
=)

the foursome dinner gang.

2009-06-19T16:32:00.000+08:00

Your Past Has Passed

One of the most liberating realisations you can have on your road to success is that your past does not dictate your future.

Many people make the mistake of referring to their past in order to obtain a prediction of their future. They say things like:

"My last two business ventures have failed so I guess I'll never have a successful business"

"I've always had problematic relationships so I guess I'll never meet the right person"

It's very important to realise that no matter what has happened in the past, your future is still an open field of possibilities.

Many of the world's most successful people have achieved their success after perservering in the face of hardship and failure. For example:

The Beatles were turned down by the Decca recording company but they went on to become one of the most successful bands of all time.
Michael Jordan was cut from his high school basket ball team but he went on to become one of the most successful basketball players in the world.
Joanne Rowling struggled through a collapsed marriage and occasionally had to skip meals to make sure she had enough money to feed her four month old baby but she went on to sell over 400 million copies of her books and become the highest earning novelist in history.

As these examples show, past failures and hardships do not exclude you from future success. In fact it is often through failure that people develop the skills and strength of character they need to succeed.

No matter how many times you have failed in the past, always remember this important fact:

Your Past Does Not Dictate Your Future

As you read this article, your future is filled with endless possibilities - there are new opportunities waiting to be discovered, new relationships waiting to blossom and new adventures waiting to begin.

So I encourage you today to turn away from the failures of the past and instead look forward to creating your future success.

Until Next Time,

Dare To Dream!

- taken online

2009-06-19T16:19:00.002+08:00

heard this song during work that day...
kinda caught my attention.

how long has it been since i ever stepped out into the world.

2009-06-19T15:54:00.000+08:00

do i seriously need a dress that badly?
haha.
got drove out todae after the shoot..
to shopping malls and streets.
just in search of a fitting dress.

and gosh.
yesh i am sooo not girly.
the walk, the posture, the actions, the poses, the looks.

i am best at cheeky and unglam poses.

dude.
was i born the wrong gender?
=p

anyway pomo's ishi mura looks realli gd!
how cum i never noticed it after gg danzppl so many times.
the place realli has loads of gd jap food.
affordable too!
fellow dance mates,
know wat i am thinking now?
*hintz*

2009-06-17T13:35:00.005+08:00

was listening to this song that i chanced upon two days ago.
den i realised why it sounded so familiar during the movie.
haha.

Kumi Koda - Faraway

So Faraway
Become confused then keep finding out my own future
(I’ll be the one)
I promise you
In this darkness
I am still looking for the place where I belong
I can do it, definitely

Everyday you can do it
Quit looking back on your good old yesterday
Let’s focus on today which is real

I can see
The path I have taken is correct
Even there is a detour, the goal is the same

It took me longer than the others
but I want to take good care of the things that I have developed
Can’t say for sure but I think it’s the right thing to do

So Faraway
Become confused then keep finding out myown future
(I’ll be the one)
I promise you
In this darkness
I am still looking for the place where I belong
I can do it, definitely

No matter who you are
there must be special moments which you cannot throw away
It must be important to tell the others that “yes, I remember that”

Everything you can do it
Not for anybody

Not for any reason
There is only one “me” in this world

Courage and confidence are what I am lack of
To have my pride expands my pain
That’s not what I have hoped for

When I am stuck
I want to try merging into the wind
I close my eyes
Spread my arms
Try to sharpens up my brain
I start to realize something

2009-06-17T13:29:00.002+08:00

i love how they sound fab even w/o music.

2009-06-17T12:27:00.001+08:00

"When you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on.
- Franklin D. Roosevelt"

2009-06-17T01:32:00.005+08:00

i saw so many of my old frens todae!
tabi and daffy,
once my greatest cgs pals..

this girl's turned so hot i had a hard time recgonising her!

dance subaru was great.
the first ever dance that i watched
and felt so much for it.

thou i went late
=p

but it was gd company!
with ruisi, poon and fred..
settled for lunch at the foodcourt in cine basement.
i realised these:

1. ruisi hates beansprout.
2. fred cant stand food he cant stand eatin.
3. poon loves olives.

haha.
den we went shoppin ard with ruisi..
where we saw...er hmm..
den when she left, poon n i continued our journey!

in the toilet?=p

they wanted to show off their flowers on the heads=p

i think this machine is damn cool.

poon n i ate lk pigs..
shopped lk taitais..
trailed after er hmmm er hmmm...
u know la girl!

sushi babes.

tapioca chics.

juz finished discussing float dance storyline with mama and floaters.
great but complex idea.
whoohoo.
lets have faith that we can do it this yr!
=)

thanks to poon,
i got this unique pair of hells!!

2009-06-16T00:19:00.004+08:00

AYG prac todae was....nice!
pantings everywhere from the non-stop tries.

thanks to poon the silly driver,
ellen thommy michelle n i had a ride to clementi for supper.
we sat at kopitiam,
yet all of us bought bread in the end!
haha.

2009-06-15T18:54:00.002+08:00

i love this picture i took for the photoshoot
=p

2009-06-15T16:50:00.003+08:00

3 things i realise after travelling so much todae.

1. i hate far east square for the location.
but i love the place for itself.

2. siemens office building rawks.

3. 5kg of red bean paste is not easy to carry back.

after a whole day of meetin ppl..
travelling to places to send bubble tea.
visitin thommy & ellen hunee at work,
i'm finally back in my room!

searchin for nus jobs now.
=)

some pictures i took at work..
ytd was friggin quiet.
sang songs from 9pm-12am with zhiwei.
ahah.
thanks to suki manager who frequents here,
we ate sashimi!

i chose this as my treat: calamari rings!

zhiwei's fav prawn batter.

sashimi under the dark.cool huh.

can u spot my small tiny cup against zhiwei's big guiness mug?

2009-06-15T04:23:00.000+08:00

caught this on fmylife.com..

"Today, I was peeing in the shower when my girlfriend suddenly pulled open the shower curtain in an attempt to scare me. Startled, I quickly spun around and peed all over her dress. FML"

wat the hell.

2009-06-14T19:04:00.002+08:00

i love this song.

"The controversial music video for Everytime was directed by David LaChapelle.

The video begins with Spears and her boyfriend (played by Stephen Dorff) in a limo. They arrive at a building where the paparazzi are awaiting. Spears is hit in the head with a camera, but keeps walking. When in the lobby, Spears' boyfriend begins throwing some magazines around and pushing photographers.

Spears and her beau are escorted out of the room and are taken into hallways which lead them to her room. They have a fight in which her boyfriend throws a vase at the wall. He leaves and Spears begins filling her bathtub and removing her clothes.

When she's in the tub, she realizes she's bleeding from the head, suffering a concussion from when she was hit in the head with a paparazzo's cameras. She loses consciousness in the tub. Later, her beau finds her unconscious in her tub and calls rescue. Unconscious, Spears follows her body to the hospital, not before being shown running towards the camera away from a bright light - a scene often associated with the transition into afterlife.

She is also seen walking into a nearby hospital room where a baby girl is being born, implying reincarnation. Near the end of the video, Spears is seen running away from the camera and towards the bright light--symbolizing a fear of staying on Earth and an embracement of death.

Following these scenes, Spears is shown rising from under the water in the bathtub and resting her head and smiling. This implies that she was imagining the entire scenario and never became unconscious to begin with. This was added to perhaps lessen the severity and controversy of the explicit content of the video."

- taken from Wikipedia.

2009-06-14T18:35:00.003+08:00

coke show's over ytd.
it's a funny scene how the gang mass froze outside heeren.
along the streets.
for 30seconds before we startin dancing
to the "oh so loud" music.

open up some happiness.
haha.
(i still love pepsi more=p)

anyway thanks to elle babe for accompanying me these days.
- taking mrts and buses togeda..
- gg to job interviews and briefings frm chinatn to bugis..
- heading dn to dance practises..
- having dinner wif suzeey and tommy at a place we took eternity to find
- acting as sportswomen at coke show
- practising dance of course!

most imptly, for intro-ing me to mazlan's class...
(or is that how u spell his name?)
it was fun and refreshing!
thou tiring.
funny how when he called us to try dancing to the music on our own,
we all just sat there and said nothing.
ahha.

thanks for everything!=)

great day it was at coke event showcase and danzppl openhouse!
thou i screwed the dance up
thnks to my last min nervousness again.

and thanks to suzeey, thommy,poon,ellen,derek and marcus.
for comin dn to visit me at my wkplace!
had loads of fun playing games w these dudes.
sabotages=p

2009-06-12T09:07:00.006+08:00

chanced upon this new place in Hong Kong.
it's a restaurant called "Modern Toilet"
check out this cool place man..

2009-06-11T13:19:00.001+08:00

i watched this last yr..
and still tink it is amazing.
catch it!

2009-06-11T12:26:00.001+08:00

有一种爱叫做放手

如果两个人的天堂
象是温馨的墙
囚禁你的梦想
幸福是否象是一扇铁窗
候鸟失去了南方

如果你对天空向往
渴望一双翅膀
放手让你飞翔
你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰
听从凋谢的时光

浪漫如果变成了牵绊
我愿为你选择回到孤单
缠绵如果变成了锁链
抛开诺言

有一种爱叫做放手
为爱放弃天长地久
我们相守若让你付出所有
让真爱带我走

有一种爱叫做放手
为爱结束天长地久
我的离去若让你拥有所有
让真爱带我走说分手

为了你失去你
狠心扮演伤害你
为了你离开你
永远不分的离去

2009-06-11T12:10:00.003+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone   While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Disappointment
Looked down on
Losing Someone
Commitment
Where Your life is Going
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What Kind of Person, Deep in Your heart, Are You? Your Result: Passionate Person   Deep inside, you're a volatile, fiery maelstrom brimming with vivid emotion. You are vehemently strong-willed, and have something to say. If you're actually a shy, quiet person on the outside, that's fine; usually it's the quiet people too who have all this emotion pent up. You know what they say; "It's usually the quiet one you need to watch out for." Try boxing.
Calm Person
Creative Person
Intuitive Person
Dangerous Person
What Kind of Person, Deep in Your heart, Are You? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-06-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

rushed back ytd night from LOUD camp..
met aywlin for discussion in the afternoon at harbourfront.
got to hitch a ride back!
haha.

i missed the campfire!
thanks to thinkin that AYG dance prac was on..
and work was up for me tonight.
but in the end it all cancelled.
darn.
and blast practice ended too late.

but oh well,
i loved the choreo.
and i loved workin out in dance.

had botak jones for dinner with thommy, peiying n their cg..
apparently people get full easily with that portion.
hmm.
i wonder why dun i seem to feel so.

thanks to LOUD crew for all the efforts in the fance performance!
thou alot of things went badly
and many were rushed till the last pt before the actual thing,
we made it work!
i hope we did a good job?
=)

but the camp was....good.
with games, cheering, screaming, bonding..
me kenneth and dale having water gang breaks togeda.
phew it was fun.

and sentosa!
everyone's tanned and burnt.
except for me.
i have no difference!
even jason cudnt recgonise anything diff bout me at blast todae.
gosh i must be realli sunrays-absorbing.
=p

i loved the devotion part in the morning.
it helped me instantly feel much better.
and the service...
conviction.
i learnt alot, seriously.
learnt to be a better person in alot of ways.

ellen babe!
i'm missing you after not having shop/dance with ya..
haha.
call me out asap k!
=)

2009-06-08T00:28:00.004+08:00

finally breathe right roadshow event's over!
haha...
two days of being a cute & innocent lookin angel..
clad in those pri sch super painful white lady shoes.
wearin tutu skirts and the heloooo...

thanks to ellen hunee for the wonderful company this 2 days!
loved being an angel with ya...
=p

smiling for the cam..

cute not=p

got to know a new colleague..
also from biz faculty!

germaine(yr 2)

and to xuzi and tommy, clara & giap for visitin us!

plus mummy n junko who came over to have a peep todae...

dinner gang on 1st night!

some cute yet stupid lookin boys..=p

acting dumb..

i love this pic=)

i realised i really do love kids,
the way they smile so naturally happy.
the way they get excited over small little things,
the way they exclaim in joy to their mummies & daddies..
the innocence just makes me envy them
=)

2009-06-04T10:04:00.003+08:00

some how, britney sounded sad to me in this song...

LUCKY
This is a story about a girl named Lucky…

Early mornin
She wakes up
With a knock, knock, knock on the door

It's time for makeup
Perfect smile
It's who they're all waitin for
They go,isn't she lovely
This Hollywood girl

And they say,
she's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinkin
If there is nothin missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night.

Lost in an image, in a dream
But there's no one there to wake her up!
And the world is spinning, and she keeps on winning
But tell me what happens when it stops?
They go,
"Isn't she lovely, this Hollywood girl?"

And they say she's so lucky, she's a star
But she cry, cry, cries in her lonely heart, thinking
If there is nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night

Isn't she lucky, this Hollywood girl?

2009-06-04T09:17:00.004+08:00

The new danzppl studio is nice!
check it out ppl..at POMO.
they've got good choreos too!

brownies united.

ellen looks super photogenic in this...

thanks to these two babes
for willing to accompany me to bugis library.
after i pestered so many ppl..
sometimes, a small action makes a big impact.
=)

We managed to grab some artistic pics on showcase there.

1. kuku artwork!
(doesn't it sound lk my facebk)

2. i like the colors..

3. depicting a kid's favourite action: pointing.

went for loud crew prac after tat..
alot of hiccups here and there.
but i managed to teach the steps too..
hope it goes well.
jiayou ppL!

dale and kenneth preparing to showcase!

yuxuan, my soulmate brother.

dale, "my best friend"
(lk watever=p)

2009-06-03T11:26:00.001+08:00

interesting!

2009-06-03T09:37:00.003+08:00

Long Distance

There's only so many songs that
I can sing to pass the time.
And I'm running out of things to do
to get you off my mind.
All I have is this picture in a frame,
that I hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where I'd rather be,
but we're stuck where we are.
It's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me,
but we're stuck where we are
it's so hard, you're so far..
This long distance is killing me.

It's so hard, it's so hard,
where we are, where we are, you're so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It's so hard, it's so hard,
where we are, where we are, you're so far
This long distance is killing me.

Now the minutes feel like hours
and the hours feel like days..
While I'm away
You know right now I can't be home
But I'm coming home soon
Coming home soon..
All I have is this picture in a frame
that I hold close to see your face everyday.

Can you hear me crying?

2009-06-03T08:32:00.002+08:00

self taken photo at ytd's photoshoot=p

2009-06-03T00:50:00.003+08:00

all those lookin for jobs out there!
here are some for those who needs more flexible timing!
=)

1) http://www.freelancezone.com.sg/jobs/admin-hr-clerical/receptionist-part-time/1023310150301103103

2) http://www.freelancezone.com.sg/jobs/admin-hr-clerical/part-time-admin-assistant/1023310150301103042

3) http://singaporetempjob.blogspot.com/2009/06/temp-book-keeperaccounts-asst-for-5-6.html

4) http://singaporetempjob.blogspot.com/2009/06/temp-receptionist-15-june-26-june-09.html

for now.

2009-06-03T00:29:00.003+08:00

went to earn money in the afternoon.

ahah,
i love the way the studio was decorated.
big and simple, yet filled with so many sophisticated materials.

met quite a few new frens at academy IG!
we had quite abit of chat.
and all of us presented our songs and dance..
it's gonna be a great time knowin them more as time passes!
=)

let's jiayou girls!
thanks to the new girl sheena that i noe,
i got to hear about this real good song.

Don't Speak -No Doubt

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it hurts
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

2009-06-02T11:59:00.002+08:00

"It's time to start living the life you've imagined" - Henry James

2009-06-02T03:36:00.001+08:00

nice song nice singer.

2009-06-02T02:09:00.000+08:00

me: "haha...no i not emo de k."
poon: "doesn't have to be you emo. it could be jesse mccartney who's emo."
me: "well, ppl like songs right bcos of the fact that they can identify with
them..ain't it?"
poon: "eh then at one point in time a lot of people must have identified with being
short. cos of flo-rida's low. hahahahhaa."
me: "...... "

2009-06-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

revelation time.

After having gone through so much in the past few weeks,
i realised something.
that i never truly made my decisions.
and finally on the morning of 1 june 2009,
I took the step.

Not because anyone told me to.
But because i felt the urge to do so,
and phew...the huge relief after having done it.
Not only in action, but also in the mind,
it was great.

Reason being whatever happened these few days.
i'm not sure...
perhaps it's because my brother patted me on my head?
perhaps it's because i caught up with my dance pals?
perhaps it's because i talked to chun?
perhaps it's because i went to ellen's bdae party?
perhaps it's because i spoke to fred?
perhaps it's because i knew i was going out with poon for e first?

but i know,
it's time i let go of certain things.
Whatever i choose to go after,
i've gotta make sure i make my decision right.
And that i will enjoy my life from then on..
it may not be the right decision,
but at least i need to ensure efforts are done to make it a right one, ain't it?

There're just some things u can't force.
and there's some people that you can never do the same to too.
When ppl make decisions, u can't change them.
You just gotta ensure the decisions u make thereafter,
are the right way to deal with THEIR decisions.

Which is why,
i'm not gonna live to please others anymore.

It's my life,
and yes, to me,
the greatest pleasure is bringing happiness to others.
I'll still do my best to give whatever makes my frens happy,
But if i kept hoping for things to be the same,to be like before,
when others are probably moving on
to what they have settled for is better for them..
then this is not making anyone better in the situation.

I will just get stuck in the same position w/o any progress.
And that, is dwelling in sorrow.
That's not me.
And i'm finding myself back again, this time truely.

Meeting up with all my frens have taught me,
that i'm making the decision alone.
BUT I'M NOT MAKING THE DECISION RIGHT ALONE.
simply to say,
this is the first time i realise,
my frens are really there.
not as in there to support literally,
but the feeling that they care and they are existent in my life,
it is evidable(is there such a word?=p)

It's weird how my life seems so hopeful now,
that watever i placed in what i'm about to do in future is clear ahead of me.
Cleansed in the soul, that is.
It's as if i know that the next time when i meet with this,
i will know how to handle it.
Not to escape, but to deal.

It's weird how i felt so much joy in my life suddenly,
that i have such an active lifestyle to give up to.
I've got dance, work, outings, exercises, family to spend time with...
Why bother to stick my head into somewhere else
where i can find no hope except constant rejection?

It's weird how i suddenly felt i could look towards the future,
have interest in it,
and realise that is where my life would be,
not the past.

The past is for you to bear hopes for a better situation,
but not to change back to original.
NOTHING REMAINS THE SAME,
and we all gotta respect that fact!
just put it down, and look in front.

I WANNA MOVE ON.
AND MAKE MYSELF A BETTER PERSON
FOR WHAT HOLDS FOR ME.
that's the truth.

i smiled all the way at the mrt station todae..
just to myself..
listening to the song "stick to the status quo"
the meaning behind it is just...
so meaningful.
=p

i wanna thank these ppl for being such a great pal all along.
for letting me realise so many things.

1. yvonne poon
2. ellen soh
3. guo liren
4. thomas tan
5. sharon chee
6. lee weiting
7. frederick voon
8. chua chun yun
9. chii tarng
10. goh wei na
11. yongkai
12. claudine
13. jason newin
14. samuel yapp

no one told me anything,
no one did anything,
no one adviced me anything.
i just experienced all this myself.

And i can truly say for sure,
yuko is back.
=)

AND NOW...FOR THE EVENT OF THE DAY...

tryin out the glittery adidas cap.

my turn.

we thought the shop design was cool.

sweetie pies...
(yesh, that's me you have, in a DRESS)